home-sweet-home :)

I woke up this morning for the first time not feeling like bounding out of bed and actually not feeling like getting out of bed at all. Rather than push it, (the funny almost-dizziness of last years 'iron-wars' was starting to come back) I thought I would walk this mornings session. This was a teeny bit disappointing because it was the flattest course we had run on (we tried it out last night). Nonetheless I had a really enjoyable 50 min walk in the sunshine with some tunes and a general feeling of well being and satisfaction with my efforts over the last 7 days.

I decided after that that it would be a good time to call it quits and have some down time (2 days) before the BRW triathlon. So after a long drive (including getting lost in Canberra... that place is a maze!!). I am quite happy with that decision. 7 days and 21 sessions is more than I could ever have hoped. And those hills!

I got a huge amount out of the camp.

- The obvious ones - I feel fitter and better equipped for hills! and more hills! (for now anyways...)

- I met some lovely lovely people and got to know some that I knew a little a whole lot better. For those of you that read this, it was great :)

- One thing that was really confronting was the whole - being significantly slower than the bulk of the group - thing. It is hard to put yourself completely out of your comfort zone like that, but I am incredibly glad that I did, and triumph through adversity and all that, blah blah :)

- Lots of time to think about goals and things. I am still not 100% - at this stage I am torn between wanting to set a big scary triathlon goal, but not being sure whether it is really what I love and whether perhaps I should just run and run and run with some cycling and swimming as cross training. Or hedge my bets over winter, keep my hand in the bike and swim and decide later on... (this one is currently winning!).

- Lots of time to think about myself and what I want, and don't want in my life. Don't get to do that too often. I really loved the space to just be and not be stressing about work or anyone or anything. And there is nothing like hitting the crest of a massive hill before coasting down the other side to give you a beautiful sense of perspective and contentment (and sheer bloody relief!!!)

Of course, life starts crashing back in and I felt the stress coming last night when I spoke with my dad and found out that my baby brother had an accident and hurt his arm quite badly (looks like a few surgeries will be involved) in a bull riding accident and that my grandfather is in hospital again. But in a current status check I'm feeling good and I'm energised and excited about training again. I found myself running up the stairs to my apartment tonight - things must be good!! (but I'll confirm when I notice myself singing loudly in the shower - that is a sure sign that all is right with the world)

x