what now??

my head is all over the shop at the moment which seems to be a bit symptomatic of my life. I feel very disorganised and unsettled. which i am I guess.

a few reasons for it - one being that I have a new job!!! (just call me the poster child for Gen Y...) However, it is at the same firm, but in the Learning & Development team which is something I've wanted to do for ages. So I am completely excited about that. However, there is a bit of resistance about me leaving my current role so I am dealing with a bit of hostility around that.

also my training is all over the shop. actually that is a lie. all over the shop implies that some is occurring. it isn't. Since I went to Perth, which was a bit traumatic in itself, and I decided not to do the big race in Cronulla I just haven't been able to see any reason to train very hard (or at all...). And I have been going out like I haven't done for quite some time...

[speaking of which - I had an amazing birthday with some amazing people. I feel very spoiled and had such a blast. You know who you are :) ]

anyway so part of me thinks maybe I should just do the tri and see if I survive. the other part thinks - nah - better to do it when I am well prepared and can do it properly and now is the ideal time to get stuck into my base training for next season! (did someone say half IM?? just kidding!!).

this is turning very stream-of-consciousness so might as well continue...

I have also booked 2 weeks holiday at the start of April which will be my first real holiday in over 2 years. I am dying for one!!

I am going to go to Port to watch the Ironman, then a few days in Sydney, then I am heading to Jindabyne for 9 days to go on one of Sean Williams running camps. It will be hard, but there will be people around my standard and I am busting to get out of the city. I need some space and some down time and why not get a good dose of altitude training while I'm at it??

Fun! x