perspective

dragged myself to sweat this morning for another fartlek session. the last one i found ok (there were a few of us at the back and we didn't do the last loop etc). today was hard!! and i did the extra loop. i think that i was probably going faster in parts than i did last time - but who can tell. certainly i did about 1.5km more than last time, which combined with the to and from the park and a lap of the oval makes it quite a big run for me!! (9-10km i think)

and my legs actually hurt afterwards! i don't usually get that (possibly not trying hard enough?) but today i felt it. could just be that my body has just registered the increase in mileage etc. anyway. feeling good now.

on the job front things aren't improving. it looks like i will start to get busy from today as i am starting a due diligence for a big deal. but to be honest i am underwhelmed by the prospect of working past 8 every night and giving up my weekends. call me crazy.

and although i feel very weird about it, i am considering another opportunity that i was called about a few weeks ago (and dismissed wanting to give this a shot) and am facing the always-uncomfortable fact of admitting to myself that i may have made a mistake. and that in fact - i'm just not cut out for this. i think things could have been different if i had spoken to my boss and felt a bit motivated early on, or if i didn't sit with nothing to do for 3 weeks while they told me how bad it was going to be when it did start. of course nothing may come of it, but i'm thinking about it. definitely food for thought....